so friday i was supposed to go to a focus group on Friday for CVS. I was told it was January 9th from 1pm-5pm and it was at the corprate building in RI (a good hr and a half drive from my house) I agreed to go and was to be paid for the trip and everything.

So Friday I went to Rhode Island and went to six different CVS HQ buildings. No one knew what I was talking about...so Eventually after an hour of putting around looking for this place, one woman got my Regional Pharmacy Supervisor on the phone and she told me the group was 2 days before. I essentially drove to RI for nothing.

and on top of that my poor car is so light, i felt like i was going to be blown off the road with the winds that day. i was terrified driving my car all the way down, and all the way back and it was all for nothing. almost had a panic attack on the side of the highway. it was all too much and it wasnt fair to me.

i dont even know anymore.

I recently looked at myself in the mirror and almost becme physically sick. i almost threw up looking at how much weigh ive gained (when i get anxious/stressed/upset i eat when i should be writing)

with my days off i just do nothing. i wish I had money for a gym membership or something.

I really want/need a pedometer. I wanna try the 10,000 steps a day thing and drink water.



I just need help. I feel myself hiding in a corner