I'm sorry you're in a bad place as well dana.

You know, I've thought about this and I think that when we got to that "what if" place...emotions, fears, thoughts and torments from several past events can grab hold of us there.

Since I've worked with alot of the past stuff, the "what if" place hasn't been nearly so scary and dark and if it is, I can come back from it more quickly.

KD