DiMarie--Thanks for tip and info. Too bad they get sealed as you say--tho malpractice awards MUST , or are supposed to be listed on the State Licensing Boards website when you look up a surgeon/doctor. Our's in CA is the California Medical Board--but nothing get's listed for pending actions I don't think. Just settled cases. I'm not worried about speaking the truth here DiMarie or to anyone who writes to me. I try to stay off puter mostly--but I'm so hopeless about my situation and how far I've deteriorated now that I feel it is my purpose to tell what happened to me, in hopes that it won't keep happening to others, or happen as badly as it happened to me. I should NEVER have started down any surgery path in the front of the neck and Dr. Nath should have evaluated me better to really determine what was going on, as should have Ahn, Jordan, Avery and all the rest. NOw there is so little hope of any quality of life left for long. triste.