Thanks all.....I am in such a rut - slump........I guess it is a combo of things, if I listed everything that has transpired since my mom died, but you already know, and prior to her death, and now and in the near future. I am going nuts slowly.

It's like I am awake, yet not motivated to do anything. Plus the quitting smoking is driving me up a wall, even with the Nicotrol inhaler.

I never leave the house, and it's in the 70's now. I am self-talking to myself, trying hard to change this pattern I am in, and then the grief.

I will survive, got this far, eh? Have a nice weekend.

Hugs, Nikko