Ok James spill it, whats up? maybe some of us have been where you are or are there now, you may also help others by posting and then they will see hey i am not the only one, and some of us may have a suggestion or two for what is troubling you, people dont bite, I was in a tailspin when i first met a lot of these wonderful folks, and i can not tell you how much they have helped me, dont hesitate, we are here