Hi Seams,

I'm so glad that you not only survived all of that with your mother, but that you got help. Too often we hear about a cycle that just continues with abuse within families. You have shown a lot of strength in telling your story to us.

I can understand how difficult going home might be for you. I think if you can hold onto the memories of the good times with your mother ... like you said "moments when she was so nurturing and loving" ... then maybe you will still feel her 'there' with you.

take care,