(((BJ)))You ARE going to hurt this holiday season...I just don't want you to hurt yourself. You are early in grieving your dear mother BJ....feel what ever it is you feel: fear, anger quilt, apathy....and hold yourself tight, rock while you're holding yourself. And I don't know who on earth is rejecting you....you have siblings ....did I remember that right?

Turn to others for support....here if you have no one in real life. Most importantly...remember to remember. Your tears will eventually lessen....but not this Holiday season.

Love, Alffe