(((Xie))) I wish I'd stayed up late enough last night to read this.
And I think maybe we have touched on this "lecture" before...*grin

You are stuck in an awful place....you are doing the wrong thing...and you have to find a new way. Why you asked. Because I care about you! Because you can have a life with some quality in it...some measure of happiness and pride.. How do I know this? Because your fella saw it in you, loved it about you, because you are reaching out here and because you are a survivor.

You need a plan..you need to start today...you need to do two things today...you pick them. Maybe just wash your hair or wash one window...
something...anything but make yourself do it!!

Easier said than done?? Nothing succeeds like success my Dad always told me. Don't want to?? Do it anyway....do it for yourself...do it for me...just do it!!

Ok...lecture over! I will however, want a full report. *grin