I will not respond to your post, other than to say...I am a human being struggling with a disease that I didn't have the first 54 years of my life. And yes....I have had a very difficult time dealing with it for the past 5 years. I've tried to be honest about my frailities and, for the first time....just expose how undisciplined I have been in attacking this problem. I'm working with my doctor on reducing my pain medication over a slow period of time, and this will be a long process, but I am working very hard at this. Prior to the onset of this disorder, I would hardly take an aspirin. I exercised daily, and took my good health for granted. I admit, I have not been the best patient, but I won't let anyone knock me down. I have eliminated most alcohol use...save for the very rare glass of red wine. I have had 5 days of almost being pain free and it is nice. I won't say anymore. I also won't say anything until I get "X" amount of time under my belt. I will provide comment when appropriate, but will not put myself on the line.