I've got appointments with a therapist,Nurse Practitioner,and my Case manager this month. I still haven't heard from the SSD people.

I'm so tired of the wait,and I've sold some of my possessions so I can pay the bills. I'm sort of in a slump,and tired because I cannot afford to go anywhere. I use my car to drive to the store,to get groceries. Things look dim to me right now. I hope that they change for the better.

I hope that my emotions heal. No one has fussed at me recently,or thrown guilt trips,threats,or gloom,and doom on me. Thats been the primary thing that upsets me for a long period of time. I become very disturbed by verbal abuse. When that happens,I can't get it out of my head. It replays over,and over,and over again.

I wonder if our new President knows about the two year waiting period that the SSD people make us wait. I have now been waiting for over two years. This has caused tremendous family problems,and pressure that has caused me many heartaches,and sorrow.

I hope that things work out soon. BF