Beth



hair coloring... sounds exciting... i keep mine as it is, but i do know how fixing up or changing one's hair is one of those "refreshing things" in life.

i'm glad to see you back. no worries for any drama as far as i'm concerned. always some drama going on, besides... lol. what's life without it?

Mari,

COOL (or better yet, WARM!) on getting the maintenance ppl in. i hate doing stuff like that. "other" ppl in house etc etc. glad you will be warmer. i hear it has been colder than usual in FL this year. or perhaps that is simply an impression... every time i talk to ppl back there it seems to be exceptionally cold. here we are in the 40's today - great, relative to how it's been still too darn cold for me, and worthy of glove-wearing. i was one of few when i lived in FL that would wear gloves when the temp dropped below 50. not always lined, depending on how cold. but i would wear them.

Here's to an early spring but i hear the groundhog announced it wouldn't be. well... one can hope.

good luck with your paperwork. i know how you must be looking forward to that!

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as for me,

i have my "work" cut out for me this weekend, "literally" (puns intended).

last night, i finished a book i was reading: Riding the Bus with My Sister, by Rachel Wilson. Excellent. Extraordinary and touching tale, and very well written. a tear-jerker in places, but in a good way.

my "work" yes... i found an ad for a content/intranet writer... for a UK company. The role requires writing exclusively in english!

...and the ability to search the web and gather info from foreign (presumably english-speaking) contacts.

although i am excited as i believe i can do this job, i have yet to "move" on it. for once in my life, wouldn't i, couldn't i, pleeeeeease, Not Procrastinate and get the application docs (cv & cover in italian) done asap. priorities considered, perhaps even... Before Anything Else? Certainly not wait till tomorrow night at 9pm?? I have various CVs and letters to choose from already that, at worst, might require minor changes. so we are not talking writing my whole life story here! just some editing! i want the app to be received first thing monday. time is always of the essence for such things. i "should" (translate into therapeutic wording: "need to") be doing everything in my power to seize the chance at an interview, step one.

ideally i would like to send two parallel docs in english too... to show initiative as well as proof of writing ability, but....... ok this might warrant a thread. but not now. i had told myself, no posting or emailing or IMing, let alone playing games or fiddling with artsy sites, till i'm done preparing at least the 2 necessary docs for the job application. but i snuck in here... and then made exception to welcome Beth back here, and just had to check in, and of course just couldn't keep my mouth shut about this, lol!

i devoured my book on purpose so it would be one less thing on my mind. of course, i could have done the two docs first, couldn't i? and now here i am. see what i mean? what IS wrong with me???? i want to shake myself harddddd!!!!!

i also plan/hope to tidy a little more of my area, but that won't take long, and i've told myself i can just do a little - i don't need to "finish."

this weekend i would also like to write up a dialogue that frequently invades my head, for use in therapy. writing it would give it structure and allow me to explore all the nooks. the dialogue/debate/struggle is about my inability to make decisions, set goals, turn things in... they are all related. the decisional aspect and perfectionism are at the core, but it's kinda hard to set a goal if one has many "wanna be" goals and can't choose between them.

now dad is home. goodbye privacy. hello feeling "observed." sigh. off i go to try to do the right thing, regardless. will check in later.

~ waves ~ excited worried and confused