bj,

we all grieve in our own way. if blubbering helps you heal...then blubber. and you don't have to be merry and happy. it does help to remember as many good and fun memories as you can. share them. silly stories.

you have sadness because you miss them. sadness because of what they are missing.

people have such a hard time right now because holiday memories are usully some of the strongest. easiet days to remember. festive fun times with ones we loved that are no longer here. but it up to us to keep those memeories live. to create new ones for ourselves and future generations.

((((bj))))