Dear Donna,
This sounds like you are going through a stinking time right now and you need someone to reach out to you.

Do you go to a church?
I think I remember that you go to a church.
Let them know that you need help. Tell them that you need 3-D support.
Would that work?

Is there anywhere else where you can reach out to for support?

Some people can find support by volunteering. If you find a group of people who are involved in the same things you are, you can feel connected.
I can't think of a group right now.
I know that some people volunteer at animal shelters for example.
That would not work for me.
But there are lots of other volunteer things for families and children. Would that be good?

Maybe through your church you can volunteer.
Some people find that very rewarding.

I'm throwing out ideas.

When I was by myself I used to take myself out to eat or drive to the beach or park to go for a walk by myself. Same with movies. Or free concerts. These things got me out of feeling low for awhile by filling up my time and my senses. They kind of cleared the gunk out of my head.
I don't know if that is what you are going through.

Do you need to make a change?
Do something different?
That can work.

Or, I remember that my old CBT tdoc used to advise his patients to do hobbies / sports / activities that they did when they were teenagers or in their 20s. He said that it is important for people to stay connected with an activity that makes them fulfilled.

Go find some people. I used to walk around in a mall. Even if I did not know anyone, at least I was WITH others.
Or go somewhere like a park (depending on weather) and sit and watch little kids.

'Not sure if that makes sense.
Mari