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Join Date: Oct 2006
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Posts: 310
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Dear Tim .... Thank you for sharing with me. With us.
As society becomes more open, accepting and understanding of diversity, we learn, more and more, how most people have varying desires, fantasies and yearnings.
My brother was gay - but shared with me that he really wished he were a woman. He wanted to be a stay at home wife, decorating and cooking.
My ex husband had much more and much prettier underwear than I did. I had three small drawers - one for bras, one for panties, one for stockings. My husband had an entire tall large chest of drawers - one shallow drawer on the top for socks, a deep one at the bottom for hunting season wear -- and all the rest for his delicates. All colors, styles, designs. He craved to be a woman and said he would marry rich and spend his life at the mall shopping. 
I never craved to be a man, but I wanted to be able to pass as a boy to be able to be "a French Resistance fighter", a guerrilla fighter... I was a sharpshooter. And I wanted to operate big yellow Catepillar road building equipment, I wanted to gouge flat highways thru the middle of hills and mountains. I wanted to use forklifts and lift tons of cargo. I wanted to be a livestock vet, dealing with large dangerous cattle. I wanted to ride big Harleys - but only behind a slim tough guy in a black leather jacket, heavy boots and dark shades.
Let go of all my dreams, tho... 
Ah, such are our dreams.... and who knows what genetic and neurological features lie behind, what childhood experiences lie beneath, what rewarding adult exeriences and traumatic cruelties spur them on, shaping us, making us who we are....
But --- Our brains are plastic - changeable, ever in flux .. by the time we are adults, we pretty much have our "personality" - but more and more, we are learning that even in our mature years, with the right experiences, the right understandings and input and reinforcements, the correction of massive amounts of "stinking thinking", nearly all of us can change our lives quite a bit ---- how we think, how we function, how we relate to others. Personally, I think it's worth fighting for and going places in my mind that are not comfortable or happy with the intrusions.
Teri
Last edited by OneMoreTime; 12-05-2006 at 10:11 PM.
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