Just know that you are welcome here. Post as little or as much as *you* feel comfortable doing. Do try to let us know if you are in need, somehow. maybe with icons. i don't know. i wish we had not let you down but this happens. i know how terrible it feels because i have felt let down before.

You seem to have a very strong sense of fairness, which is a good quality. But it can mess with us if we start feeling "jipped." It is hard to give without expectation of return... usually there is return anyway and we may not notice we have expectations... until they are unmet... when returns are scarce, we feel let down badly. and when one is depressed, feeling let down is magnified... that is only natural.

i hope you are realizing through our posting that we do care and did not catch on to how bad you were feeling.

also keep in mind, in terms of the give-take aspect of support on the forum...

Life is seldom 50-50, but even less so on a constant basis. circumstances tip the scales one way... and then other... without any schedule or quantification. Things fluctuate randomly like the seasons... summer may be hotter than usual, while winter is mild... then another year, you get a hot hot summer and a cold cold winter, or a mild summer and a freeze-your-buttoff winter....

attention is like that. the forum is like that.

anyway, we understand you are suffering, NOW, at least. in my last post i think i asked if you had considered the possibility of a med tweak... have you?

i wish you well. keep us posted.

~ waves ~