Dear Blue,

I am so sorry you are having sad times right now.
Besides the loss of your friend's companionship, I wonder if part of the trauma you are feeling is because he was your main support system. When you have constant pain and lack of energy (Fibromyalgia, in other words, LOL) you often find someone or something that will help pull you up and give you more energy and to help distract you from the pain. So if that person or thing is suddenly snatched away form you, it can affect your whole life so much.

Maybe one of the best things you could do to feel better would be to try to find somone or a couple of people and/or some new hobby or activity that would fill that empty spot left by your friend. Try to think of someone or something else that can help lift you out of pain and give you the inspiration to do things. Or if you already have a hobby or something your really like to do-pamper yourself and give yourself permission to do it more often for awhile.

Good luck, fellow Fibromite, hang in there!!!