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Im feel tired all day... I just want to die... I wish I could kill myself right now, but at the same time, I start crying when I think I could die... Does that make sense !?
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Hugs to you, Blue Majo!


I can honestly understand how crummy you're feeling. There are many different anti-depressants though. There are also mood stabilizing medicines also used to control depression.

It's great that you haven't attempted suicide. I have been on the edge myself. You are a little too close for comfort. You do need to see a professional, to help you get through this difficult period of your life. Hopefully, you'll pick up a technique or reassurance that's exactly what you need.

Please reach out now. Let your doctor know exactly what you're thinking and feeling inside. Call him or her Thursday. The sooner, the better. Your last paragraph is of particular importance - and that is what I would focus upon, when talking with the doctor.

Best wishes!
Shez