I know this is off topic, but I consider you all my friends and I could use some right about now.

As you all know I have come to the painful conclusion that Lynn needs to be placed in a nursing home. His personal care has become too much for me to manage. His physical and emotional abuse escalated. His children and I found a place really close to home that we all thought was wonderful. The problem was they said the waiting list was extensive and it could be well over a year before he was placed.

I just couldn't put him in the other homes! So I talked with his doctor and he upped his Antipsychotic medication to help with the abuse so I could try to keep him home longer. It has helped, we had an incident this week, but the meds were re-adjusted yesterday.

So, I was resigned that he needed to be placed.. and I was resigned to it taking around a year before it would happen. I had a court date Tuesday and was granted guardianship. I just put the final paper work in for the chosen nursing home not 2 weeks ago.

Imagine my shock when I got a phone call early this afternoon from the nursing home telling me they have a bed ready for Lynn

I am not ready for this!!! I have talked to his son and his sister. We will have to make a decision by tomorrow. I am shaking, throwing up and just a nervous wreck. I was told a year, so I set my mind to that.... now they are talking next week!!! ACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK.

I want to do what is best for Lynn. But, I just don't know what that is!


Ever feel like it is just one thing after another?

Thanks for letting me vent Nikki