Nikki, I agree with the others. I can imagine the shock you must be feeling right now. Getting psyched up to do something in a year, is definitely not the same as suddenly deciding to do it in a week. Especially something like this.

You know I was a nurse, so please believe me when I say that I've seen other wives go through exectly the same decision as you're going through now, and as much as you feel you've accepted the decision to place Lynn in 12 months time, when that 12 month period has ended, you still would be feeling much the same as you are now.

The time is right now Nikki. The Lord knows you both need this, and that you both need it now.