Dear Lynn,

when your beloved nik-key showed us your weeding photo, we saw a man with such a content smile that would make anyone envious...

when she shared with us the pain that you are going through, it curled our toes and tugged at our hearts...and at times, made us shed some tears...

when there is such strong love between two people, it is hard to let the other person go because that just is...

when one mixed mud with water to form clay, it would be hard to separate the water from the mud especially when the mold has been broken and the clay has been reshaped again and again as you two walked through the life of love and now that clay is so mixed with tears and love and more tears and more love that it is now so bonded that no one would be able to break that...

so now there you lie, in a state where you are of unknown...nobody can truly say if one thing is better for you or the other because no one truly knows...

one can only rely on what your actions and reactions are and even that, has now become hard to distinguish...

but I know somewhere, deep in your heart as you must love Nik so very much that even though you may NOT appear to be able to tell her, that it IS in there somewhere...and that in your deepest of hearts...that you'd want nik to do the right thing...you'd want her to look after herself...

you would want to communicate the love that you have for her, that we all have to let go sometimes...but that doesn't DIMINISH the love you two have for one another...And if you were at the other end of the earth, and she on this end, in which your heart to hers is bonded so deeply that nothing will separate you two, no matter what happens...

in the end, flesh is just flesh and soul is what binds us...and I know that is what you would want to tell her...because that's exactly what I would tell my beloved moss, when it is time to let me go if it shall ever come to this...

Lynn, I hope nik will make the right decision for you, for her, for the whole...and that whatever it is in the end, through all the tears and aches, that behind all that...that I KNOW that you'll want to tell her that in this life time, she has brought you such happiness that even if it was just for a split second...it is a lot more than a lot of people would ever have experienced...

I know that you'll tell her that there are people out there that would've never have find the type of love that you two have shared for all their lives...so that even though the duration of the love between you two are so short...that it was definitely candle in the wind...it shined brightly in the darkness...and that it will last as long as she and you both shall live AND BEYOND...

Lynn, I hope in your none communicative state, you'll be able to help nik make the right decision...and whatever that is...you'll be etched in her heart forever...no matter where you go...