Hi Blue Majo...I understand your feelings, I also suffer with depression from the chronic pain I live with each and everyday.
I am having some worse days of late, and I use the chat room here to help get through those moments when I am down.
Last night was case in point....I didnt go to church, which is usually my best thing to do...cause I was feeling down. I came here to chat room and was cheered up...thanks to Nekie, Lavandula, ouch, Brokenlady, GmaSue, lor, angelrsd, TKing, Thomas Kaup...arrggghhh trying to remember all the members (hope I didnt leave any out)

But, please do seek out a Doctor to help you with these feelings....and hang in there!