This is just an awful analogy!!! But it is how I feel. I find I am trying to steel my heart, much like one does when they have to put their beloved pet down. You know you have to do it, you don't want to.. but you love them enough that you do. You dread the day, that is what Tuesday feels like to me ....

I know, it isn't as final as that. But it feels it, he is gone... yet I have to keep saying painful goodbyes... over and over and over again*sigh

I am trying to think of how good this will be for him... and how I will be able to find life and start living again. I am planning a big vacation for Sept. It gives me something good to think about. Thanks for helping me to just keep swimming