Default 2 years is a lifetime
2 years is a lifetime, and yet somehow its just a blink of an eye. So quick and so long...all at the same time.

Its been 2 years since my cousin ended his own life, at 16 years old. Brilliant, talented, on broadway and in movies... his sports statistics remain on the internet, everywhere. A straight A student. And so deeply troubled.

I feel guilt sometimes, I attempted suicide myself for the first time at 14. Had I been older, I may have suceeded. I survived my attempts, I took control of my life. I wish he had the chance.

So, 2 years later I sit here, with a heavy heart and a hole in my gut. Thinking of a child whose smile lit up the room and whose abscence will never be filled. It doesnt get easier, this loss, it just hurts differently.

Sleep tight little boy in the dinosaur suit, know you are loved and missed.
B

BTW, this is a repost from the other board