Sadness I am so sorry for the choice your cousin made. Those that are left behind when a loved one completes suicide, are forever changed. Two years isn't really very long on the grief road and the holidays find all of us struggling with guilt feelings and just the pain of those "empty chairs" around the table.

Our son Michael killed himself in January of 1990 and there are still tears after all the years.....there are however, wonderful memories and we can still "hear" his big booming laugh.

Your counsin sounds like a wonderful guy and I can tell that you love him still.

(((warm hugs))) We'd love to hear more about him...his name? More hugs.