yesssirreeebobb!!! more than ok!!! i'd like to get off all of them but that's not gonna be real soon. Zoloft happened somewhat as a consequence to having racing thoughts due to illness. Then my dose was so low, yet i was still fine moodwise, that we decided to yank it... let's say yanking it had been on a back burner for some time, had not become frankly doable until now. i already said about why that is good, neurologically, and symptomatically, there seems to be no reason to keep it at this point. so, it is DUE, if you know what i mean.

oh yeah. i forget them soon enough as there are waaaaaaaaay too many to remember. i have to "rehearse" any that i think are meaningful (had one of those and was very upsetting one also, not persecutional like the rest, just re-evoked an old memory and i got upset during daytime also. i then proceeded to obsess over it and that's how i ended up remembering it. my pdoc told me to write it down because we need to discuss it. i am afraid of that - discussing it. i didn't write it down. but i remember it sure enough after all that replaying it in my mind.)

last night i started having nasty frantic dreams again. waking up with pressure on my chest and choking sensation (not apneic - anxious) sometimes close to tears.

i have to go now or my mom will take over the bathroom with laundry and i need it to take that shower and do my hair which i didn't yesterday.

I'll be Bach!

~ waves ~