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Originally Posted by shezbut
In case you don't know me from the chat site, I'm a survivor of tbi. In March, 2007, I slipped on the ice and fell onto my head. Caused intracraneal hemorrhage, as a plate shifted on impact in left temporal lobe. I've been fighting major depression since - and I just feel alone. While I KNOW that there are *many* survivors out there, I cannot seem to pull myself up out of this funk!
Physical, financial, emotional, marital, parenting problems- you name it. My life just really stinks  Then, I feel like a jerk for complaining. Countless people have it much worse than I! Who am I to complain when others are freaking fighting to live?? I feel so guilty, I don't even go onto the support link anymore. Instead, I just keep living. Forcing myself to stay in the moment, rather than look back on the past - and all that is gone. It is so hard!
I just thought I'd introduce myself here. Maybe some of you have felt the same & have pointers to share. I just don't feel like I fit in anywhere I go.
Shez |
Hi Shez, So very good to meet you! I'm also new here, I joined to get some answers & help with my newly aquired MOM as a live-in. She has Alzhiemer's, Schizophrenia, & Denentia...& I have TBI from the year 1999. lol..yikes..
You fit in my world just fine. I was hit by a car while on a motorcycle. The accident ripped my leg off, broke several other bones throughout my body, which I did recover for the most part. but the real kicker is the TBI. I HAVE to tell you that EVERYTHING you are speaking of and feeling, I had! Also still do sometimes..But it DOES get better!
What I did was extreme..but what the heck, I had a brain injury! I felt so alone, like you & I MOVED far away from everyone I ever knew. I guess it was just to stressful to be around people who knew me better than I did & would remind me that I was no longer the same person. So I left, started all over again at age 41. Don't get me wrong, it was hard, but so easy to live without expectations from others...I guess what I did was learn to live With my disability.
BTY, I am living proof that Dr.'s do NOT know much when relating to the brain. They said "I would die", then it was "I will never walk", then it was "I could never learn", Blah,Blah,Blah...I faught with dr.'s that I could rebuild my brain cells & they laughed at me...It's about 8-9 years later & I'm doing pretty good. I found Gardening as my OCD outlet. My little yard looks like a mini botanical garden, running out of space..but love it!
You WILL find your place! You will Love yourself again, & you DO "FIT" in! There is a World of us out here, a new generation of TBI's...Good luck. I hope this wasn't too long...