Hey there.
I'm sorry to hear this... it sounds like something very bad happened indeed... i am interpreting this from the fear of sleep and the everybody upset and the fact you did not state what happened...
I hope you were able to rest, and hopefully sleep and feel a little better now.
I do encourage you to see that counselor. For this and maybe you can discuss some of the general work difficulties that have come your way, too.
Sending you soothing vibes...
~ waves ~