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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: Carolina's
Posts: 208
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: Carolina's
Posts: 208
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Guilty
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Originally Posted by BlueMajo
Hello everybody,
Im new to this forum and Im hoping being here can help me living...
Im from Mexico, so, I apologise for my english.
I have always been very depressed girl... My main problem is that I always feel guilty of everything that happens to me, like I deserve all the horrible things that happen in my life...
I suffer of scarring alopecia which made me terribly sad because everyday Im worried I will get completely bald...
I had wore glasses for 25 years, but last year I decided I wanted to do something for me, and got surgery to get rid of my glasses... Guess what, my surgery went out bad, and Im thinking about my eyes ALL day... I feel terribly guilty... like, why did I do this to my eyes ??? Im always going to be ugly and lonely, why did I do this ?? I want my glasses back...
I feel extremely depressed when thinking about my past...
I was taking fluoxetine everyday and it seemed to help, but I started to suffer of side effects and has to stop it...
Im feel tired all day... I just want to die... I wish I could kill myself right now, but at the same time, I start crying when I think I could die... Does that make sense !?
Any help will be greatly appreciated.
Thank you guys.
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Good Morning BlueMajo,
I'm also very new here & the people HERE are fantastic! I have a variety on "problems" which I relate to..Major Depression, Tramatic Brain Injury, Chronic pain, all resulting from accident 8-9 yrs. ago. Although Depression was with me since young childhood! I always remember being different, isolated, like no one liked me. I had so many external symptoms of OCD, but never was taken to a Dr. for them. I tried several times to overdose as a teenager. I always felt so alone! You mentioned GUILT, I thin this feeling is the KEY to my depression. But have no idea why? But it is there & I do understand.
I am so sorry that you feel ugly! You sound BEAUTIFUL! I know many specialist claim you need to "Find Your Inner Beauty" before you feel beautiful, but it seems like you are already there. I will try to help you thru any tough times. I know that you will get tons of support from all here. But like everyone stated, you really need a good Dr...
Any time you want to chat, you can PM me. I usually have free time early morning or late night, But NOT extemely dependable, as I care for my mom who has a ton of mental & physical problems...Lots of work.But I WILL ansewr you!
I have been thru so many antidepressants...For depression: The Prozac worked for quite awhile..But I Swear by the LEXEPRO! I even went off a few times to try newer one...but keep coming back to this one. Also Church when I already feel good. But for the Really bad days, I go outside & dig holes! then somehow they turn into gardens, or stay holes.lol...
For pain, I now take Only Percocet & yoga. I go to PT 3x a week & also receive cortisone injections. I do take as many suppliments as I can though, simply because they make me feel better, more energy. I agree with the B Complex...I eat Organic only, this makes me feel good! Oh, I also stay away from mirrors..lol. I find that I can be in the best of moods & then look in a mirror & get all weird because of the old age stuff! I simply don't remember turning 40, now almost 50..lol..
My Prayers are with you.
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