This is Steve. I'm so sorry that you are grieving. I know the pain of grief. Both you,and BJ are going through a similar thing. I'm so sorry. I know that It's real. I know that you are very sensitive,and it's going to take some time for the grief process to subside. I'm a very sensitive person too. You will get better. It will take time,but you will get better. I'm very sorry that your Dad felt that bad. We cannot fathom the depth of his desperation. It may remain a mystery,but you must go on.

I love you. A person so lovingly missing her dad. You are very tenderhearted,and valuable here,and now. Let not your heart be so troubled. I hope that you feel some peace tonight,God given peace. Please hold on,and this grief should subside,and you should feel a bit better as the days,months,and years go by. BF