nik,

I know where you're coming from but I have to ask myself this question.

IF it is NOT so raw, would any of us be here??

If there are those that do not find the subject of suicide RAW and powerful and emotional, perhaps they just DON'T understand it?

my personal feeling is that if you can't talk about it here at the SURVIVOR of suicide forum when you are a survivor, WHERE would you talk about it?

Let it out...there are great options to utilize here and there is always that delete (or asking the mods to delete it later)

But I think by you talking about it bravely, you'll help many....

I'll be around for a little longer....keep talking...