well, I am off to bed...

((((BIG HUGS))))

will be keeping you in our thoughts and prayers...

nik, it's OK to feel angry, and get as angry as you can and need to....

but...don't HOLD on to it too long, OK?? (I get into the "I get so angry at my father and then I let it go and then I get angry again modes". And as time goes by, I feel the anger less and less each time...I'll probably do this for the rest of my life, but it does get easier....I hope that'll happen for you...)