Sorry, I was lost in thought looking at your cloud picture. I really like it.
Sometimes, it helps to get a few things off your chest ((Moi)) takes some of the weight off your shoulders.
I can understand your views on medications. I guess I keep thinking, these meds are out there for a reason. If it could help lesson your load, help you ward off the beasts... perhaps they are worth it?
I am truly sorry to hear about your pain. When you are ready, emotionally and finacially, maybe a good neuro would be able to help you with your pain and the numbness. I take neurontin at high doses, it does help some. Not sure if it could help with your symptoms or not?
Pain is a horrible thing