thanks to all of you who posted while i was gone
Curious, i take hanky, thankye monkey
and thanks for dropping in on me here.
Mrs D - Thanks for that link ... i will absolutely have a look! i need some bloodtests anyway, so this would be the time if i wanted some hormonal checks i could fold them into that. i do supplement with selenium and zinc already ... as Depakote hinders absorption of those... if it is related to Zn or Se deficiency, then i shouldn't have a problem. also i have been on depakote for almost 5 years, at 500mg tho (a low dose). i would think it would have "messed me up" before now if it was gonna, but perhaps not. i will definitely read up! thank you!
Bobby,
it is very kind of you to post to me.
i can't take an antidepressant right now - unsuitable for a mixed mood - i have activation sx which are exacerbated by ADs. that was how i ended up tapering and finally suspending my Zoloft - which i normally tolerate well. i think i do need to be cautious and self-protective, tho, yes.
Jo and
Donna
doc listened. appt went well. your wishes came true.
thanks for being near.
Mari
well... i made the bus, step one, and i made it there. no hair washed no shower (
bless whoever invented wet towelettes.) no crying on the bus either. there and back, safe. thanks.
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pdoc was on board w/ me. up the depakote. i basically gave him the run down of sx. and wrapped up saying the way i saw things i was - in english - in a "subclinical mixed mood." he lol'd coz he got it - 'subclinical' translates directly which i didn't know. now i do hah, ok. well he got the picture and fast. i didn't propose the depakote. i said so what are we gonna do, bandaids, or modify my standard therapy. he said the latter was preferable, and let's up the depakote. and he gave his reasons for that which actually were the same as mine. i was glad that i didn't suggest it but instead got "clean feedback" from him. it gave me more faith in him, and more faith in "the plan" because two heads came up with it independently. but he lol'd when i told him i'd posted on the forum before i left about seeing him about upping my depakote. we also talked about the En/lorazepam and agreed that i could take a smidgeon more En - he said as needed. i said i always need it. so i figure on adding 0.5mg in the am (plus usual 2mg at night) - he was good with that. i may add another 0.5mg in the afternoon... if needed
. i don't want to exceed 3mg.
so my new script is for 800mg Depakote ER. i hope it doesn't make me stupid. but if it does, i'll just be a bit stupid for a while. the idea is just to do this for a while. we didn't talk time but i figure 6-8 weeks, and he did say "for a while" - i.e., a temporary thing.
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thanks again everyone. will keep you posted. can't get script filled till tomorrow (too late now)... then will be a couple days for effect to kick in.
~ waves ~ who has coffee (decaf) and choc chip cookie waiting. nom nom.