(((Pono))) Fasten your seatbelt and hang on sweetie. I hate the place you're in. I think we can all relate and it hurts to see another going through it. It's such an awful place. When it happens, I have to remind myself more than once that it will pass, there will be a day of feeling better.
I'm so sorry. Just keep hanging on and do those things that make you feel better, I don't know what. Love up an animal, look at a tree, watch a good movie, just be nice to yourself.