thank you for your kinds words, I am just a bit overwhelmed right now. I don;t regret for one minute having her,this is what I wanted.

I just wonder about her future, my sons future and my future. Things are not looking good for my son. Of course now that he is cleaning up he can't believe what he has done.He is very remorseful, but I am having a hard time understanding how it happened in the first place.

I know that pain meds can be very addictive, I've gone through withdrawals when I stopped and I was taking them as prescribed. My son has never been in trouble and is now facing at the very least 15 years.

I want to get him out so he can spend sometime with Alissa before he goes to jail, But part of me is saying you reap what you sow. I am so conflicted.

..........My family says let him rot! Nice

Even though I am angry, he is my son and I love him and know his actions over the past 6-8 months were not him but the drugs. But seperating the two is very difficult for me as it seems it was for him.

Thanks for listening...........it helps to "talk" to unbias folks.

Dottie