I think accepting your diagnosis is like grieving the loss of a loved one...
You are grieving the loss of who you were before. You are no longer the person you once were. You have to accept the fact that you are, and always will be a different person. You have limitations now. You are no longer the person who could live life pain free.

1. Shock & Denial
2. Pain & Guilt
3. Anger & Bargaining
4. Depression, Reflection, Loneliness
5. The Upward turn
6. Reconstruction and working through
7. Acceptance and Hope

This process can take a long time, and you can go in and out of the stages many times. I think that right now, you are between stage 3 and 4.

Sometimes you get "stuck" on a level and may need help getting past it. I got stuck in #3 for a while! Then I was really stuck in #4.. because I was also grieving the loss of my mother... Like I said, we can slip back into previous steps sometimes...