i am sorry for what you are going through. i am mostly off doctors myself especially specialists. misdiagnosis is my main concern too and i have had an in home pharmacy in the past. i felt much better not taking the drugs.

one thing you might try to regain control is to pick a food and stop it for several weeks till it is out of your system. then have some and see if you feel worse. repeat with other foods. my culprits are white flour and corn.

chin up - you sound so strong.