I am still trying to hang in there. The doc I'm supposed to see in Denver won't be available until my Jan 5th appointment. I keep telling myself I can last until then.

My husband says if my mood doesn't improve and I remain suicidal he is going to drag me somewhere for help.

I'm so weary of all this and I'm sure you guys are weary of your pain as well. I wish I was noble and brave but I just don't seem to have it in me anymore.

Your posts have helped so much. Thank you. I will post again when I am able to sit up a while.

Does your back get weak and hurt more if you lie down a lot? I think that's what may be happening as well.

Thanks again, Pam