Hello Larry!
It's nice that you're here, I'm new here myself. It's nice ta meetcha!

If you don't mind, may I ask a question?
You've been fairly descriptive of your life, and what ails you.

If you hadto stop and think, and come up with an answer to this, what would it be?
What do you want to be when you grow up?

(Now, I'm assuming that your family is happy, like you said, and you like your job).
I mean, if a "genie gave you one wish, to DO SOMETHING" what would it be?
You can't ask for "a cure", you hafto ask for something "To Do". Something that you would have to spend a lot of time doing, so you'd need to enjoy it somewhat.
Music, painting, sports, games, hiking, fishing, see, I'm talking hobby type things, even work, or meditation. As opposed to working on a chain gang.
What would you say?

Anyway, I hope we get to talk more!
Glad you're here.

ASB
Pete