wow everyone. thanks so much for the responses and replies and all the well wishes. it really touches us.

well, the appt was prolific, i think i am using the right word here. lol

he has set me up to see a spine specialist AND a neuro. he's not the type to just send people off to see others so i think this is more serious than i thought for i can also see the concern on his face. he is a really wonderful doctor that cares and listens.

i suggested everything to him and was very detailed in my description. i also didn't "hide" my tics which i usually do (not sure why i hide my tics. lol)

this is what he suspects. i have c-5 and c-6 problems based on my descriptions. he hopes it's only bulging discs and that can be helped with a shot or two. but if it goes deeper, we'll talk about it.

i told him about the salonpas patches. he's not familiar with it but says it shouldn't hurt.

i asked him about the bo-tox which to my luck. a new neuro in town who is across the street from him just happens to be the specialist and is the only one in town that does bo-tox. i'll see him on the 7th of april.

and i told him that if the guy doesn't do bo-tox, that i'll just be as happy with bo's brother, mo and get mo-tox...then we got into a three stooges routine and lol.....

i told him i'd been lying on the hard floor to keep help calm my tics whenever i am not doing something and it is helping. but i don't want to keep on lying on the floor for i feel like it is hindering me to get things done. the problem is that my work is puter related but sitting at the puter for longer than about 15 minutes has been really making the neck tics worse.

i did tell him that i am thinking about buying a 2X10 and tie it to my back to prop my neck up. he thinks we should go into business together. lol

he's sending me to a "hanger" to get custom fitted neck brace for me to wear...woohoo!! In the mean time, i am going to invest in one. if anyone has any good suggestions, please let us know.

he also gave me 30 days worth of cymbalta. says it'll help with oc tendencies,anxieties, maybe the tics, even with arthritis.

i guess i'll have to suck it up and take the meds for now. have to look up on cymbalta. i took my first dose and have been feeling a bit nauseated and tired...

but i am hoping it'll help make me sleep.

so, i will see a neuro about bo-tox as well as nerve damage. will see spine specialist to see how the little verte bras are doing and if i should get DD cups. LOL and am getting custom made neck braces. and might even get a custom hand brace made if need be. i guess i'll start becoming a mummy even though i'll become a daddy...

which btw, today, it is official...the final hearing went, we are going to be parents....

it's been an emotional past few days....the news of one of our dear friends that is fighting a losing battle. the news of the kids...

that bitter sweetness....

i had to get out of the house yesterday and walked around the neighborhood...

pollens abound and made me sneeze...i walked around and noticed buds on the trees sprouting...the sun was nice and warm. the marsh are golden and dancing in the spring breeze...

egrets were in the marsh fishing, pelicans were flying across the river...

my heart wanted to soar as i walked on the dock and as i ponder life...

i hate that the ones i love is going to leave us...but i rejoice at the life that i have...

the news today is reviving me in an unknown sense...

these pains, no matter where they take me...i'll deal with it....

because i do know that i have tons of support...your wonderful posts and emails and messages have warmed me/us deeply....

i feel kinda bad posting about my pain. it really isn't much compared to what a lot of you are going through...please know that you're are in our hearts and that we so appreciate you all for asking, caring, and for your awesome supports...

i have salonpas patches on my joints. i am going to epsom salt. i am going to learn to type with 8 fingers.

it won't stop me...

and oh yeah, i'll be talking to my chiro after all these appt are done and see what happens...everything is going to be balanced and utilized...

(((((big hugs))))) to you all...thanks so much

ps, haven't been on so please forgive me for the lapse in response. will get to everything as soon as i can...thanks!