That is great that you found such a cool eye doctor. Good to know the exam went well and he was so patient. Means the world, when we are unwell, doesn't it. Interesting office too. Maybe next time you will be less nervous and can ask him about the piano and music.

i sure hope your friend is ok and just moved. it was good of you to try and call her. if you have her address perhaps you can send a thank you note. if it can't be delivered, it will come back with a reason stamped on it by the post office. but that requires gathering stuff, composing, and mailing stuff. i dunno if you're up to that.

I can see how it can be good to post on impulse - if we are ok with what we would be posting. part of me wasn't a lot of the time. then i'd obsess on my own ambivalence like a dog chasing its tail! so knowing i couldn't post was useful - i could have asked to come back sooner but that would have defeated the purpose. i actually considered asking for another week's "hiatus" lol, but i'm too weak to be impuslive, and a lot of the negativity has somehow resolved. this class 3 hurricane is now down to tropical storm, lol.

as for the energy... sigh... i'm tired all the time now from the higher dose of Depakote even though i did quit the Zyprexa for now, since the pounds were coming on fast. and i'm still eating compulsively. doc says i'm ok to do that, but if i have even a single day that is exceptionally bad, to take it just for that night... to help prevent me from worsening again. using it not every day does not cause the metabolic changes. but i'm gonna keep off it for a week now, coz i'm still way hungry as well as compulsive with food. (The only atypicals available here are Seroquel and Zyprexa. In a pinch, i can take either one, but Zyprexa works much much much much better and verrrrrrrrrrrrrrry fasssst.)

Your post sounds a little more upbeat... i hope that means you have been feeling better... at times at least. i know it can come and go at first but hey, even a little is better than nothing coming! even if it is not constant yet. it'll get there. meanwhile keep right one dong what you need to do to stay afloat, and being ok about it.

~ waves ~