Quote..."for me, right now, in the midst of that heavy grief -- too many painfull memories haunt & taunt.... it is hard to believe that any good will come of it...
'absence" casts dark shadows in my world,
know will never be cured, or 'restored"- as it was before
but believe that healing can occur

possibility that a 'larger' world will present that includes more , than known before, is also hard to believe right now too... but HOPE it can & will" unquote

Pono...that day will come when you remember the good times and you will cherish those memories. You will heal from your anger and disappointment and from the loss. There is no time table for how long it takes on the journey of grief...we all are different. It's hard to care about the flowers pushing up even though we know we are supposed to identify spring with new beginnings...the rebirth. And then too the Easter season is just around the corner and all that joy we know we are supposed to be feeling.

What you need to do is just what you have been doing. One day at a time with the knowledge that you will "get there" and that you aren't alone..we are right beside you and it's ok to stumble, to cry, to ask why....