QM, somtimes it becomes hard on us because we are helpless to fix what's going on. Have you considered asking your doctor for something to keep you from getting depressed or having anxiety? I have a script for zanax and take it only as needed. It helps very much when I am having one of those days where it feels like the walls are closing in. For me it's anxiety rather than depression. Take care of you first so you can be strong for him. And when you feel like you want to run, we all have at some time, come here.