Are you in councelling for this? I think it's important to have councelling when you are going through so much.

I have been suicidal sense I could remember. Around 8 or 9 maybe. I have been in councelling for years. I got worse after I got RSD and that's when I got into councelling.

I am not an addict. I think it's something where a person has to have an addictive personality and also I think it runs in the family at times.

Sorry that you are going through so much. It's good that you found the group. Maybe someone else can give you more insight.

Ada