thanks so much....over two hours have passed and i am still feeling a bit normal. i decided if myra doesn't get in touch with me by next week, i will call her again and tell her how much i need her as a sister. I will tell her that i have felt like a wanderer even though i have a few close friends but I would treasure her as an anchor to feel grounded. I guess it is going to be worth the pain of rejection if her behavior isn't as receptive as it was initially.
I told her my doctor told me I was chronically mentally ill or something like that so I am not exactly a bargain. I do have a sense of humor when the depression decides to take a break and some energy begins to flow. currently i am more scared about not having a sister than being rejected again.
Bobby