Hello Erin !

First of all, happy birthday !!!! It is better late, than never I hope you have enjoyed your party. I saw your pics and seems like that

Well, you know, I dont have MG, but all the posts that have the word "blue" on them, call my attention immediately So, Im here...

I understand how you feel perfectly... My life changed last year dramatically... illness, depression... bad stuff... I took bad decisions and Im where Im now... So, I understand perfectly how you feel... I want my old life back... Uff.. I miss my old life too
So, what can I tell you ??? First, I can send you thousands of hugs...
Then, I guess I can suggest you cry everytime as needed... At least crying makes us produce endorphins... which can make us feel better At least for a while huh ?

Also, I think it is awesome that you come here to vent I love to do that too... writing helps huh ?

Dont know what else can I say... Im not precisly good gicing advices as Im usually blue... But, try, at least try (for your posts I know you know how to do it very well actually) to live second, by second... Enjoy minute, by minute...
Past is that, past... We will always remember it, for sure, but, we have only our present...

Hopefully my post make sense... Im great at rambling, and, as english is not my mother language, sometimes it is hard for me to express...

Take care. Be happy.