Dear Blue ((((hugs)))) it wasn't your fault that it didn't work. We all make decisions in our life that we end up regretting, at some point. It really is part of life and growing up. We are not perfect. You can't go back and change it. Now is the time to 'take the bull by the horns' so to speak, and pull yourself up by your boot straps. It won't do you any good to keep holding on to the guilt and what ifs. Try to think about the fact that you do have two beautiful eyes that see, even if imperfectly. What can you do? I hope this will help. Keep talking about it. Try to get the anger out of your system, and find ways to cope. I love you dear Blue sssss