Thank-you all so much. It means more to me than you will ever know that I have the support that I have here.

In my "real" life I rarely reach out. I tend to be the rock that everyone comes to when the chips are down. This journey I'm on now is probably the most difficult one I have been on in my life.

I just started dating again after 10 years. I had been an abusive relationship that I ended. Shortly after, my ex took his life on my birthday. It took me 10 years to get the courage and confidence in myself to let someone in.

We had been seeing each other for about 4 months when Alissa came to stay with me. Just like when my kids were young.......She comes first. So although we seemed to be very well suited for each other, he told me on my birthday that he thought maybe I had too much on my plate to be in a relationship!!! DUH!! I wasn't looking for a relationship, its only been 4 months.

I think its pretty funny! It doesn't matter how old some men get, they still need to be the center of attention and will not share you.

The good new is I found out that it never would have worked before I invested much of myself. I can't really blame him.....I thought my days of babies were over too.

I know I'm rambling, but humor me for just another thought.

Do people really just turn thier backs on thier blood? So many people have said things to me like......

Oh my gosh you are a saint.

You have custody, why are you doing this?

You have given up your freedom!

There goes your social life.

My answer is I just can't imagine not doing this.

Thanks for listening!! And Happy Easter. We will be coloring eggs tomorrow...Have you seen the kits they have for egg coloring? wow things have changed !!


You guys are the best!!!!

Dottie