I can't type long on the computer right now because of back problems from typing on the computer when it is off its hinges... contortionism for me...

so just quickly want to say, because i read this thread and you sound so forlorn, that i'm listening, and at least want to leave you a even if i can't write one of my huge long philosophical posts.

and yes i also know how it is when people

* just * don't * get it. *

hang in there. i hope you feel better soon. panic attacks suck.

~ waves ~