I know how hard it is, I was where you are at a few weeks ago. You think you are dying and that you will never be the same again. This is completely normal for PCS. But talk to your doctor about getting more tests done. I don't know how it is wherever in the world you are, but here in Australia, it is better to go through the hospital to get things done like MRI & CT scans, that way it is free. At least then your mind will be at ease and will help with the anxiety.

For me, it wasn't until I had the MRI (which showed nothing abnormal) and started taking Zoloft that I am now starting to feel a bit like myself again. I think I became so stressed and upset over the the whole thing (which is completely understandable) that I wasn't giving my brain/head any rest to repair itself and its now taken longer to get to this point than it would've otherwise.

All the feelings you are experiencing are normal and you will get through this. I know suicide is something that may come across your mind. You don't want to keep feeling like this. But please remember that that is not you, it is the PCS. I have what most call the 'perfect life'. Great husband, two beautiful children, great friends/support, financial stability etc etc and I still had thoughts of harming myself - again, its all part of the PCS.

My email address is nacooper@msn.com if you find you need support during a low moment, please email me and I will hopefully be able to reassure you.

Good luck and hang in there!! This wont last - trust me, I know!!